Just another story…
I don’t give a shit anymore of what you might think of me.!!!
I am who I am because of my upbringings'
The greatest lesson I learned from my child-life and parents are what I shouldn’t do that was done upon me.
I woke up today wanting to start a blog… I’m tired of being judged! I am 32 years old, married, with two beautiful children and I’m still afraid of even beginning because of what my parents might think. If they even knew what I was doing, they would probably tell me what to say and what NOT to say. And there will probably be a lot of what NOT to say. You know, because we Koreans have a reputation to keep.
I’m Korean with a shit load of problems. Yes, I was born in America, Portland Oregon to be exact. But as a 1st generation, my parent’s mindset was still based on “Korean traditions” I’m Korean, not American as they always told me. But I had to do well in school, get good grades and go to a University where they can boast about me to their “so called friends.”….which I never accomplished. I am their huge disappointment. I’m not writing this to get sympathy. I’m simply writing this because I am a proud woman. I may feel like I hit rock bottom sometimes but overall, I am who I am and I should love ME. I don’t want to be afraid anymore. I don’t want to pretend to be all cheery and bubbly when I’m not. I want to touch other individuals and speak for them. I want to show others who feel trapped that they shouldn’t. It’s OKAY. Love yourself because you are beautiful. And you are born into this world because you are needed…So if you want to hear more, stay tuned.
Until next time….Goodnight world!!!!!