You browse the net and there are millions of things you want. You see a woman passing by with the utmost perfect body. You see another woman with that Chanel bag you wanted and that Louis Vuitton bracelet you craved for. And in a distant away you see a family laughing and enjoying their time in life. I am materialistic and always want more. Aren’t we all? Are we just terrified to admit it because someone might think of us in some bad way?
We have someone we stalk on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, or some other social network. If you don’t, then I’m jealous. I have someone I stalk. This girl perceives her life as perfect and I’m jealous. I see the new things she bought, the places she goes out to eat, and the new adventures she encounters.
I ask myself, “Sariah, why do you do this to yourself?” It’s so hard to control myself. I just can’t understand my routine. I know that it’s bad for me, but still I proceed on. I tell myself that I won’t do it again, and without me knowing, I am following her again. I feel so alone and defeated at times. Don’t get mistaken. I have a wonderful family. My children are absolutely adorable and perfect to me. I have a healthy relationship with my husband and an overweight dog. I should be grateful for what I have. But it’s not that simple. It’s not in our nature. We want more! I want more!